This is a special song from Owl City and Lindsey Stirling because it has such a powerful message about appreciating the wonderful things about life even though you might be suffering with grief and loss as I am today. It’s coming up to the first anniversary of losing my wife of 23 years and the holiday season which she loved so much. It’s going to be so painful just like last Christmas but we will make it through somehow. Someway.
I am thankful for the three wonderful children she blessed me with but I wish she were here to enjoy the holidays with us. She made every day a holiday all year long. She truly appreciated life like no one I’ve ever known. It’s as if she knew she was not going to life as long as most people. She has always dealt with sickness and health issues but she never let it get her down. Even when we saw doctors to discuss having children they all said we shouldn’t do it considering all of her medical conditions but I am so thankful we didn’t listen to them. Having this family brought so much joy to her and it made everything worth it.
So, as I lick my wounds and have my daily cries, I still try to find the joys and special moments every day I’m here. I know that’s what we she wanted us to do. Because of her, these will always be beautiful times. Love you Lori.
A spark soaring
Down through the pouring
Rain and restoring
Life to the light house
A slow-motion
Wave on the ocean
Stirs my emotion
Up like a rain cloud
When did the sky turn black?
And when will the light come back?
A cab driver
Turn to skydiver
Then to survivorDying to break down
A blood brother
Surrogate mother
Hugging each otherCrying their eyes out
When did the sky turn black?
And when will the light come back?I’m ecstatic
Like A drug addictLocked in the attic
Strung out and spellbound
I fought all through the night
Oh oh, but I made it alive!
The sun is starting to rise
Oh oh, these are beautiful times!
This fight of my life is
So hard
So hard
So hard
